real life

(or something close to it...)

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

I just got back from my on-again, off-again Bible study. I call it this because I haven't been there in a month and don't really miss it when I'm not there... but when I go, I do miss it. The reason I haven't been there is that I work until 4.30 & then have a meeting at work until 7pm.... if I take the train, I don't get home until 8.30... I'm usually exhausted... if I drive... I won't get to Bible study until 8 (which is when it usually starts... late.). Blah, just excuses.

Anyway, tonight we just talked and saw how everyone was doing. I mentioned that I started this blog. Patrick, the leader of the group, said that he would find it in five minutes. So, I'm writing in case he does...which, truthfully, I hope he does not. But if you do, something I should have told you tonight... which I failed to do is this: it was good seeing you smile & laugh. Sorry I can't tell you that in person.

Tomorrow is Thursday, April 1st. Something big happened on that day a few years ago. I can't wait to share it with you all (if anybody is even out there).
Nothing too exciting to report. I discovered a great Mexican fast-food type restaurant last night on my way to Target. Baja Fresh! The last time I ate here was when I lived in Columbus. Fish tacos, shrimp tacos, fresh salsa, yummy! I ended up getting a chicken enchilada to go. Unfortunately, when I got home I was carrying all my target bags plus my food bag and my workbag. I ended up dropping the Baja Fresh bag onto it's side. Thankfully, the contents were covered... but still all the sause and salsa leaked out... onto my carpet, onto my favorite blue sweater (thanks to Dryel the stain is gone..that stuff works!!!), etc... but it was still edible. Yummy.

Today is another day at work. It's my turn to be at the front desk. Usually this makes the day go by really fast. Must run.

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

More about my friend I haven't talked to in 4 months. As I said before in the first post. I liked him (ie.. a crush... if a 32 yr old professional woman can still have those!) for a bit a few years ago when I first met him. I've never really had a super-serious relationship of a dating kind. I knew that this crush would end the same way. A few of my friends, who 9x out of 10, are definitely more wiser than I....keep saying "well, you are just falling for someone out of your league." I believed it on this one. He's a doctor. Someone I knew that would NEVER notice me in that way. I know relationships are a two way street (whether friendships or otherwise) but this breakdown was probably all my fault. I expected it from the beginning.. I am thankful for the time I was able to know him. I do admire him. He has a tough job and I know he works hard. He's very kind and a fair man.. but he is also very stubborn & opinionated. He loves the NY Yankees & sometimes dresses like a L.L. Bean model... But you know, I wouldn't change him. Just like Bridget Jones said to Mark Darcy... "I like you just the way you are." And, it's true. I miss my friend and I hope I'll be able to talk to him again some day. I told him once before that whenever I get married I would like him to do a reading. I'm sure he thought I was crazy when I told him that. Even with all this going on... I still want him there. More about the reason why later.

Speaking of Bridget Jones... my top five romantic comedies...

5. You've Got Mail
4. Sense & Sensibility
3. When Harry Met Sally
2. Return to Me
1. Bridget Jones' Diary.

Return to Me and Bridget Jones should both be listed as number 1. I'll explain my affinity for Return to Me later... but my life feels like Bridget Jones... without the sex, vodka, or Chaka Kan. I'm the "Bridget Jones" for the Christian set.
A long lost friend, Dan Fox, suggested that I start this blog. A little about me. I work as a financial aid advisor at a university in Center City, Philadelphia.

My weekend was interesting. Friday night, my friend Abby and I went to see Josh Groban. I didn't know what to really expect. He was actually good. I probably won't go and rush out and get his CD... but I do like his music.

Saturday I had to work at an open house at school. Fun for all involved.

Sunday I vegged and then went to church. More about church at a later date.

Monday I had a day off!!!!!!!!!!!! There is a God and he really likes me. This is my first official personal day since I started my job last November. I thought I would make it a good one. I went to the Spa at the Hershey Hotel. I had the Chocolate Bean Polish. Kinda interesting... Kinda weird. Not naked doctor weird... but weird nonetheless.

Bought a new CD yesterday. Matt Nathanson's "Beneath these Fireworks." Another recommendation of mine.

Top 5 random thoughts of today.

1. I still am really missing my friend. It is someone that I did like romantically for a bit a long time ago. For the last couple of years it has been someone that I really admired and enjoyed talking with. Unfortunately, he didn't feel the same. We haven't talked in 4 months.

2. I REALLY, REALLY want to meet M. Night Shyamalan. REALLY!!!!! I really enjoy his movies (well.. except Unbreakable. Can someone please explain this to me??).

3. Two and a Half Men is a great show. I'm so glad the duckie from Pretty in Pink grew up.

4. The Chicago White Sox might still have a chance this year.

5. I'm sad to learn that potato chips might cause cancer. They are one of my favorite foods.. which will be discussed later.