real life

(or something close to it...)

Monday, November 29, 2004

Las Vegas...Here I Come!!!!

For better or for worse, I'm off to Las Vegas this afternoon for a week. I am there for a business trip (last year it was in New Orleans.. which, as a city, I definitely liked better). Honestly, I've always wanted to see Vegas and this is a good way to see it and not on my dime.

Thanksgiving came and went. The break was much needed. My parents came in from Chicago and we spent most of the week doing tourist things in Baltimore and Philadelphia. It was nice to see them...but 5 days is a little stressful.

Nothing else too exciting to report.... except for something that keeps hitting me the older I get. Relationships are hard. Even the easy ones you need to work at. And when is it time to just let go. Sometimes I don't get that one right away. I wish I did.

Enjoy your Monday.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Lazy Saturday Morning...

I'm here in my office... I came with the intention of actually doing some work. So far, it hasn't gone that way. I need to get going on a major project... I'm about a third of the way finished... I'll do a little bit today... a lot next week...and hopefully, then be close to finishing the thing after my business trip.

I think I've finally summed up my theology in the following:

God is good. All the time.

I've discovered this week that he saved me from making a horrible mistake. HORRIBLE (Ok.. in the scheme of world peace, sex before marriage, and 10 martinis... it wasn't all that horrible...but in my world... it was for me). I chuckled when I found out what he did. Gosh, I'm totally vague on my blog. If you want to know... email me and I'll tell you the whole truth. :O)

In other news... My friend's brain tumor is bad... but not an instant death sentence as once thought. The doctor said on a scale of 1-4 ... four being "six months to live"... her's is catagorized as a 2. Still serious.. but it can go either way. I still haven't talked to her. I saw her last Monday for about 2 seconds... but that's it. She is out of the hospital and in a rehab facility... I think if anyone can beat this ...she and God can.

Other random stuff...
1. Actually... nothing.

Enjoy the cloudy, rainy Saturday... maybe it's sunny in your part of the world?

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

I'm feeling very soporific this morning.

Come on guys... don't know what it means... look it up!

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Ringing Bells Greeting Me...

About 20 minutes ago I just walked into our office at the University... The alarm was going off on the "secret door." The cool thing about working in a building built in the late 1800s is that there are a lot of secret passage ways... I've been here a year and have never actually known what was behind that door... It just had a caution sign on it and a threat of an alarm going off if anyone tried to get through it. Well, this morning I learned it went to the other auditorium and basically it's a shortcut to the morgue... kinda cool (in a creepy, macabre way). I called security.. and now I am typing in silence.

I'm here at school today for an open house. Another presentation...after awhile I just stop preparing for them. Today is the day I stopped preparing for them. I figure if I can't tell people the basics of financial aid by now... I'm truly a lost cause.

In other news... My friend Suzy rediscovered her love for the movies... not that she has actually ever lost it. It was nice to be able to hang out with her without a husband and kids (no offense Jamie, Joseph, and Emma--- all whom I love dearly!). We saw Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason. OK.... my take on the movie. It was funny.... but I didn't love it. And I say that with a heavy heart...because I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Bridget Jones. I think what I missed most in this movie was an actual story line (which, I think, is actually quite important!). For me it was a bunch of cute episodes with Bridget doing cute "Bridget-type" things. Anyway, that's neither here nor there... I laughed my rear off... so, the movie did it's job... plus I had Hugh Grant to salivate over...

Yes, I like Hugh Grant... so sue me.

On a more serious note... a woman from my church had a brain tumor removed yesterday. The doctor said it was malignant. I really want to go see her... but don't know when it will be allowed or even appropriate. I was REALLY angry when I found out... especially because she wasn't taken to a big university hospital such as HUP, Jeff, Temple, etc... She is at a local community type of hospital. I calmed down a little when I found out how well she is being treated there. The doctor has good credentials and I know he is doing his best to help her. Part of my problem is that I read and read and read all about a subject... it gives me some control over the situation (plus I like to be well-informed)... As someone told me this morning... reading all of that can kinda of take God out of the equation. I know the probabilities of survival, the type of treatment, etc... but God knows best. He can take a 20% chance of survival and bounce it up to 100%. He works miracles. He heals. He is good all the time.

A verse that just came to my's 1 Cor 13:12
"Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known."

God knows and sees everything.... we see a cloudy image. I know that this tumor will have some significance in eternity. I know God will be glorified. Whatever the outcome.

Whatever the outcome.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Random things @ 3.41pm...

i'm sick..
stuffy, runny nose... yuck.
i don't care what anyone else says.... i really like john mayer...
i'm glad it's getting cold outside..except for the fact that i have a cold right now.
it's almost time to go home.
i need to do laundry.
or buy new underwear...
i think i'll do laundry instead.
can someone make me chicken noodle soup... please?
watched part of LOTR last night.... i love those movies.... LOVE those movies.
jamie is a mean (meaning good) Scrabble player.
bridget jones comes out this week.... wicked good.
that's it.
Sad Day for the Thomas Jefferson University Family...

A 3rd year medical student was brutally beaten (with a baseball bat) on Sunday afternoon in front of the Whole Foods on South Street. She died yesterday afternoon. The guy who did this was caught. Now we wait and see what his motive (if any?) was.

My faith in God is unshakeable (and yes, it has been stirred, shaken, etc...).... but this crime seems so senseless.... a perfect opportunity to ask "Why God?" Somewhere He says that EVERYTHING will work out for his good..... EVERYTHING. So, we will wait and see.

Monday, November 08, 2004

Extreme Makeover: Home Edition...

I love this show. How can someone not? I cried from the first minute right through until the end. If any family deserved a home makeover... it was this one. I thought it was sooo cool how they actually sent the Makeover Team a present of fudge (which, if you've been to Mackinac Island... you know Fudge RULES!!). It is such a great show...

That's it... back to work.

Sunday, November 07, 2004

The stupid things you say at 3.00am...

So.... I got paged at 1am.... after about an hour of sleep. It was at the other building... I got there... the patient wasn't there yet... She finally came...but no family.... they were driving in from Delaware. So.... family finally arrives... Everything goes as planned (which, usually doesn't happen!) walk in the elevator and there is a resident standing there with his cup of coffee... He says "hi"... I say " are you?" Good... is his reply... and I say... "Better." BETTER???? Better than what? Weirdness.... Then the elevator stops at the ground floor... I stand there... and he says... "Well, aren't you going to get out?" Duh. I need sleep and I need it now.

Saturday, November 06, 2004


And all is quiet in the house. It's almost 9pm (or 21:00) and not much to report. I had dinner with my friend from the ER (we ate Chinese), visited with one patient, and now I'm back in the office wasting time on the computer.

Well..that's about it for now. Enjoy the rest of your Saturday!

Last night wasn't a great night.... Let me count my mistakes..

1. I took Broad Street instead of 76.... I sat in traffic for a long time...
2. Church Road is closed...couldn't get where I was trying to go. Made me more frusterated.
3. I got lost in a part of town I know nothing about.
4. Even more grating..was that I knew I was REALLY, REALLY close to where I needed to go.
5. I swore a lot. Not a little like I normally am prone to... but a lot. Like a truck driver (no offense to truck drivers out there).
6. I drank lots of water before I left work... didn't think about the bathroom factor.
7. Got to where I was going and the bathroom was closed. Swore again.
8. Take my word for it.... I was just a miserable hag last night.

My destination last night was Westminster Seminary to see "Fahrenheit 9/11" (to anyone reading this... you all should come sometime. The whole thing is really well done and I think it's well received). Michael Moore, the film maker, is brillant. No question there. Did I like this movie? No. So much so, I needed to bite my tongue to not say anything too controversial. I think this one movie probably did more to divide our country than anything to date. I promised a friend that I would see it... she says "how can you not believe this stuff?" She says, "Everything is true." History is in the eye of the beholder. Moore wanted us to see what HE sees. That's it.

And that being said... I'll see his next film...because he is brillant.. if not a little deranged... but then, aren't we all?

Errands to run.

Bye for now... enjoy your Saturday.

Thursday, November 04, 2004


i have a presentation in 45 minutes.... kinda feel a little too prepared... if that's possible. i'm so glad that the day is almost over... i still feel a little droopy from staying up until 3 the other night.

in other news... i think i really like the white chocolate mini reeses peanut butter cups. i've had 10 so far today (in my defense... they're small!)
George W. Bush...

He's the man
He's the man
If he can't do it... no one can!

After a REALLY long night on Tuesday (I went to bed at 3am) I woke to find us still without the decision about Ohio. Glad when it finally came in early afternoon. Very much enjoyed John Kerry's speech. He finally seemed like he was human... and not some robot.

Instead of watching 8 hours of election coverage... I watched about 6. A friend and I went to see the Ray Charles movie... aptly titled "Ray." It was a really well done movie. Definitely gave a good glimpse of to what his life was like. It was funny, there were about 30 people in the theatre... all there for the same reason.... because they didn't want to watch the election coverage. Kinda fun. It felt like we were being rebels because we didn't glue ourselves to the TV all night long.

In other news, as I promised a very dear friend (who is a Democrat) back last summer... I will see Fahrenheit 9/11 this weekend. I said to her that I would see it after the election... and I am. Can't see that Michael Moore will change my mind at all... but heck, he can try.

That's all for now.

Monday, November 01, 2004


about tomorrow's election.... but should I really be? God is sovereign. The man He wants will get the job. But still.... I sooooo hope it's the little guy from Crawford, Texas.